Just checking in... again it's been a LONG time since I've written in here! I've actually got three draft posts just sitting here waiting for me to organize my thoughts and get them finished so I can publish them! I've decided to make this entry to let you all know that I'm still around and am finally moving ahead with my transition! I'm seeing a therapist regularly and we've been working on my personal issues. It's been very little work on my "gender issues" directly, but that's OK because becoming more authentic and effective translates into becoming a whole person, and I'm SO VERY EXCITED!
Though I'm still very "part time" and not out at work yet, I can finally see the light at the end of the tunnel and the journey no-longer feels like I'm heading for a destination that is out of reach. Instead of feeling like I'm trying to head for the moon, it's more like I'm heading from one side of the North American Continent to the other side. A journey that I know will take some time, but I also know it's doable because I've seen many people make the same journey successfully.
I'm no longer depressed or dreading my day-to-day life. I feel filled with wonder and excitement about learning more of who I really am: my faults, my strengths and weaknesses, my passions and potentials! I finally feel like I am starting to really live instead of just existing and the joys and sorrows that I know I will be experiencing seem to have a greater spark of reality and part of my life, part of what makes me, Me!
So, look for some more posts here about my progress, as well as more of my history and philosophy, and wish me your best wishes as I finally start to get my life together and focused on really being myself for the first time in my life!